Hateing my Wedding but Loving my Groom

The wedding is drawing ever closer and I have to say, I will be so glad when all the wait is over. I am beyond excited to be marrying my best friend. And even more excited to spend the rest of our lives laughing and living, and building our lives together. But weddings bring out the oddest behavior in people. I have seen and heard so many odd things lately. People I genuinely consider to be very good friends, saying the most horrible things about marriage and about Dustin and I getting married. I would never have believed it had I not basically witnessed some of it. It saddens my heart to think that people I care about would think such horrible things of both Dustin and I. I am not foolish to think that people think horrible things or even say them to others, honestly I know I am guilty of disapproving and talking about others on occasion, though in truth, it has hardly ever been maliciously. I am no angel! But when it comes to my friends, I believe they know what I think and feel about them. No one is perfect. No one should be expected to be perfect. Sometimes it just hurts that even though we are almost 30 years old, instead of opening our mouths and talking like grown ups about issues we have, we talk about each other behind our backs.

It feels like this wedding will bring to light all the cracks in the damaged friendships. Which is really funny considering its usually the bride and groom that have to worry with all the details and the money and the stress. Instead, we are both very strong in our love and less in our friendships. You would think we were these spoiled money grubbing Bride & Groom Zilla's. Which is hilarious because we are just the opposite. Our Wedding is as broke as we are. lol But that's not what its about, and I think there are A LOT of people that need to WAKE UP and realise that. When we decided to get married, we just wanted to celebrate with our friends and family. It makes me so incredibly sad to think that the people I wanted most to celebrate with us, are the same ones that are bad mouthing us at every turn. It really makes you think.