76 Days and Counting

I cannot believe we have only 76 days left until we get married. With so much left to do and pay for I am beginning to believe we might never get it all done. I wish I could say I was optimistic but truthfully I am worried it won't all get done. Looking for a job and trying to make sure everything gets paid on time and that everything gets done is driving me up a wall.

I am making headway on the ceremony. I have selected several readings and am working on the actual vows. Trying to figure out the order or which to say things is the hard part. Its hard to want everything to be just so and know that it never will. lol Nothing ever goes exactly as planned. But knowing that and accepting that are two different things. I constantly have heartburn from all the worrying. When you add to that trying to figure out how to pay for all of this...lets just say I will be so happy when its all over.

In dreamland everything is simple and elegant. Something romantic but fun. Something without all the hassle. Hopefully as time goes things will fall into place and the stress with melt away and leave me simply excited and anxious.

I need to buckle down and set a schedule. There is so much left to be done and so little time. I just wanted to get some of this out and center myself. Sometimes its necessary to vent. But for now it is late and time to relax and head off to bed.