I am ready for the end of summer. I have never been a fan of warm weather. I am ready for fall colors and warm scents. I have my Macintosh Apple Yankie Tart burning in my room, all I need now is the weather to give in. I know its still August and not even quite September yet but I give up on summer. Give me the fall colors and cooler weather, I want my sweaters and jackets back. I finally got leased up to 95% this last week. Work has been crazy and I am hoping the fall/winter season will be cake and we will remain pretty full. I hope so anyway. I have been working off an on all day from home getting the laptop all cleaned up and organized and of course posting bills. Finally have a computer at work is making all the difference, I don't know how we ever made it through without one.
Life is slowly moving on and forward. I still have no real wedding plans set although we are not wanting to push the date back since we have so many friends and family getting married next yet as well. Love is apparently in the air this year lol. I have been looking at millions of wedding pages and books but still have no idea what I really want. Having done this once before does seem to lessen the fun lol. I am just not into the huge crazy wedding stuff and really just want it to be fun and relaxed and something I can enjoy. I just want a huge party, with food and drinks and my friends and family. I am not the stuffy, insane bridezilla's that most brides are. So I think deciding on anything is going to be difficult. I think I am really just going to try and focus on the fun aspect of it and just let the details fall to the wayside.
Mom is doing okay. I am still really worried about her. The doctors told us a few weeks ago that she has hypo-thyroid ism and that she is anemic. They started her on synthroid and are going to have her checked once a month for a while. She has been so tired and her legs are bothering her more and more, again, I don't know if its her blood sugar or something else that is causing it to get worse again but I know its something and that is what worries me. We are still waiting to hear back from Social Security Disability. Apparently they are still waiting for her records from Dr. Donaldson's office, which I have to call and remind them to get on the ball. Hopefully we will hear back from them soon. The sooner the better since money is once again getting tight and the holiday season is quickly approaching.
All in all I suppose things are okay. I'm just walking a fine line everyday from being okay and ...not. With all the crap that goes on in a week, sometimes I just don't have enough time to relax and recharge so I am slowly running out of steam. I keep trying to find an outlet, but so far nothing is working. I am missing something. Like a smile.
I am also missing a shower. I think I am in desperate need of a long hot shower, some lotion, and powder. And some makeup. :S
I am going to attempt to feel human tonight.
Wish me luck.
