Love Stinks Party!

I love parties, as everyone knows, so for Valentine's Day Dustin and I decided to have a Love Stinks party. And it was a blast. Everyone had a great time and it was good food and good times. Everyone had a random Valentine and they had to take a "in love picture" and then at the end of the night they had to take a "break up" picture. They also had to sing their Valentine a song, and write them a poem. They turned out really funny. I loved it and was really happy with how everything turned out. Here are some of the pictures and some very funny video!

Potluck

Last night Dustin and I went and had dinner with Doug and a few of his friends and colleagues. It was a ton of fun. I have to say it is so nice and refreshing to get out and meet new people. Ever since I got with Richard almost 11 years ago everything about me changed. I realize everyone changes but a lot about me changed. Almost everything in fact. I got lost in him and our relationship and it is taking me a very long time to bounce back from that. It sounds funny but its true. I used to have a ton of friends. I love people. I enjoy meeting new people and through the years somehow I became a sort of recluse. I am 26 years old and I am just now actually seeing the person that I really am. I wish I had taken the time to listen to my heart and to get to know myself before but I have to say, its nice to remember how much you actually enjoy yourself. I don't mean that in a conceited way. I just mean after spending all this time listening to other people and worrying about not being good enough, not liking myself, not being happy with myself, it is really nice to finally be seeing myself in a different light. I'm not scared of feeling things, of being me, or how I look or what I wear and say. I am finally coming to terms with who I am and I like me. Whatever mistakes I have made are mine to make, who I love/loved, what I like or hate, everything I do and have done, has made me who I am and I think that's great. And I think it makes me appreciate everyone else a whole lot more. I love my friends and I love all their habits and quirks. In some way everyone has enriched my life and its nice to see that and appreciate it.

Tonight I am going with Margie to Amanda's Passions Party which should be a lot of fun. I am excited. Tomorrow night Dustin and I taking our mothers out to dinner. It's the first time we have ever gotten them together other than when my mother came to give her condolences to their family when his grandfather pasted away. I don't know why I am a little nervous but I am. Is that weird? I love his mom and I know my mom loves him but its just a little weird to me and I don't know why. Oh well, I am sure it will be fine. I am just being silly.

Well I just wanted to share and stuff.

I will write more tomorrow!

Karaoke !

Good god, how long has it been since I posted. I have been so busy lately. Between work and planning our vacation and trying to stay in touch with friends, I am not getting enough sleep and there just isn't enough time in the day.

Well, the basics are:
We bought Guitar Hero and American Idol Karaoke from Hootie and Samantha and everyone we know is now hooked on them.

Samantha is pregnant again.

Dustin and I are doing great and have no idea what to get each other for Valentine's Day.

Work is driving me crazy.

I don't get enough sleep.

I am trying to get all my medications under control.

Margie quit smoking.

Ummm crap, that's all I can remember at the moment.

So, last night I went out with Margie, Amanda and Rachel and we went up to Arthur's to sing karaoke. After playing the games all the time we decided it was time to get out there and do it right. I only got to do 2 songs, partly because of nerves and partly because of lack of time. I could have done more if I hadn't have waited so long to turn my slips in. But regardless, my first song was great and everyone enjoyed a lot I think and it was Time After Time. There was only one shaky note in the whole thing. The rest was fantastic if I do say so myself. My second song was great too but I was drunk so I was having an out of body experience and I know I did good because I could hear it but when I was up there it felt like I was not singing, but just standing there looking at the words. But I could hear myself so I know I sang and everyone loved it too. So those are my new karaoke songs. I turned in another one but never got to do it and it was Hurt So Good. I love that song and I have wanted to do it for a while and never had the nerve but I would have done it last night.

Yawn okay. That's part one. I need a cig and a quick break. I will write back later.