A Tuesday Night

So I am 26. I still don't feel 26, not the way I felt 25. I guess there are some years you feel more than other. Fear more than other. I wonder if 27 will be that way for me. I mean in all honesty these past few years have flown by. I am going to be 26 and divorced. I worried about the way it sounded in my head before but now I am actually seeing it through rose-colored glasses. Come what may. And no I haven't been watching Moulin Rouge. I guess I am just having a good day. Ha!


You know I realized today that I did something bad, I completely spaced my anniversary. Can you believe that? I don't know if that shows progress or if that just proves what a horrible person I am. There is nothing I can do about it. I mean I did remember his birthday and even called him to wish him a great birthday. But now it occurs to me why he was so surprised that I did call him seeing that I missed our anniversary. But we are both with other people so it would be pretentious for me to call and say Happy Anniversary. But I still feel mean that I forgot. It's different to just not call than to not remember. But hey, maybe he forgot to! Then I wouldn't be horrible, it would just mean we have moved on with our lives.


Okay so on with chipper things. So I am wanting to buy a new camera. I am hoping to get one around Thanksgiving, which is actually really really close. Fuck! I hate it when shit sneaks up on me. I don't handle shit like this well. Damn it all to hell. I wanted to have everyone over for a pre-Thanksgiving dinner and that is going to be hard to pull off in such a short time. I better start planning. And seeing what others think of the idea. Jenny! I need to talk to Jenny because as much as I wish I had the room to do it here there is just no way. Fuck! Damn it time sucks, when we want to savor it or need more of it it flies by but when we are waiting for it to pass it is slower than molasses. Damn it. Well I have a lot of planning to do and not much time to pull it off. That means people will have to bring a dish with them. I will have to see who would like to help also. Hmm I guess we shall see.



Well I need a notebook and some time to write and search some stuff, so I guess my catch up session is over. Poop!

Later!