Hello Everyone! I have been just working away! Dustin and I are finally getting Worlds of Fun season passes tonight. Margie has decided to get one with us which is very exciting. Last night we three went out and saw XMen: The Last Stand. Color me disappointed. For people that haven't seen it please do not read on. SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I can't quite believe what happened. Am I the only one stunned here? I mean they just decided to kill off some very important characters. I mean WOW! I was so upset. I mean okay so you guys don't want to make anymore movies, fine. But that doesn't mean its okay to kill Xavier, Scott and Jean. WTF! I was so mad I could barely contain myself when we came out of the theater. I am a huge dork, I know this. All the people around me know this. I used to love to watch the XMen Cartoons, hell so did my mother. I loved it when they decided to make these movies in the first place. Now I was never a comic collector, we were pretty poor growing up, but I am sooo interested in them. I love to pick the brains of the comic collectors and fanatics. I love it. I love hearing the history and if I could get my hands on all the comics I would more than likely read them all. I am madly passionately in love with the games on PS2. Dustin and I have played them several times over cause we love them so much. I can't wait for the next one. I am also excited about the new one that includes a lot of other super characters. Anyways, what I am trying to say is that after all that I was sitting there so excited and then *poof* all my expectations were ruined. And I was left sitting there going, "what the fuck!"
So enough of that. I have had an interesting week either way. Samantha and Hootie, have been having problems in the past few weeks/month. I was not surprised, but that doesn't mean I wasn't sympathetic. As much as I hate to say it, nothing surprises me anymore about those two. I hate that she has to go through all this shit, but to say she had no idea would be a lie. I mean it's true she had no clue she would get pregnant, but it was a good possibility considering so it's not like it was a shocker or anything. I have always been one to give people the benefit of the doubt even if I don't trust them, I am always hoping for the better while expecting the worst. And well....Hootie is a prime example. Contrary to what Samantha believe, we all support her. Even though a lot of the times she invites bad into her life. We love her so we accept her for who she is and that means all good and bad decisions. But when it comes to Hootie bad is everywhere. Even good becomes bad when he's involved, and now she can't escape it. And unfortunately neither can his poor unborn daughter. I can honestly say that I don't know if I have met anyone so unprepared for a child. And it's not just that he is unprepared it that he doesn't care. It's as if he had no idea what a baby is. It's a foreign object to him. Something to toss, throw, jump, run, basically do whatever he wishes with it. It's scary. So it's a mess. A big scary mess. And honestly hard for me to handle. I have my own issues dealing with babies all around me, and I am proud to say I do very well with it. I have to separate myself from it a lot of the time but all in all I am pleased with my ability to handle it. What I can't handle is Hootie. I try. I can't handle Samantha with Hootie either but its not because of her, it's him. And it drives me crazy. I told Samantha before that he would one thing that could keep us apart. I get angry sometimes and I get mad at people sometimes but him... I am beginning to hate. I don't ate very many people but him... He is an arrogant, selfish, asshole. I could go into my more detail but then I would have to waste more energy on him that he deserves. He has posted a profile on Match.com, stating he is single. He has taken to hanging out with another woman every night or at least seeing her or talking to her once a day. He lies to Samantha and steals her belongings, money and anything else he can get his hands on. He is almost certainly screwing this Mary chick, seeing as Samantha caught him at her house at after 2am and they were in her bedroom and she was in a tank top and wrapped in a blanket. I don't think that boy has a decent bone in his body. He could careless about Samantha, let alone Bella. He called Samantha white trash and said she had nothing on all these other girls he could get. HA! The only thing about Samantha that is white trash is the fact she is with him. All he does is drag her down. There are many mean and nasty horrible things that I would love to say about him but I will not waste my energy and I am way too good for that. I am so torn up over it I dreamed about it last night. Very vividly I might add. And all I wanted to do is beat the crap out of him. I yelled, screamed, hit, and kicked him all while Samantha cried and told him what a piece of shit he is, but when it was all done, she was standing there with him and all his cuts and bruises had healed. He was fine and dandy and looing as smug as ever. And it physically made me ill. So this morning I decided, I can't handle it. I can't watch this wonderful girl throw it all way, and throw it all away for her daughter too. She is me. She is what could have happened to me with Richard. They are me and Richard. Not in the sense that everything about them is like him and I but in the sense that their relationship is mine and Richards relationship. The hatred, the love, the loathing, the lack of compassion. It's mirrored. And she makes me happy that I got out. Because I could not have handled having a child with him. Not because he would have been a horrible father or anything but because I would not want my child to grow up in family full of animosity. Full of hate, and resentment. I couldn't do it. Hootie will never be adult enough or civil enough to handle having a daughter and not being with the mother. The way he is going he will be a deadbeat dad. Mooching off of Samantha, her mother or whom ever he can sweet talk into it. That boy redefines scum of the earth. Ugh! I will pray for Bella and Samantha everyday. Though it hasn't worked so far.
Well, I really should get back to work. I need something to get this off of my mind. Everyone stop and think of someone in a bad situation and wish,pray, or whatever for them and keep loving them, because they are really going to need it.
Fiery Gurl
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